tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85205349860914241972024-03-12T22:59:54.407-07:00Ah Mow, Amas, AmatLaurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.comBlogger59125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-35852169085262190042016-01-05T09:26:00.000-08:002016-01-05T09:26:09.517-08:00The Ugly Side of Lyme <br />
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A family member asked me recently, "Okay, help me understand how I could be on intense antibiotics to get rid of acne for two years and yet doctors refuse to write you a prescription?"</div>
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This is a question Lyme patients have been trying to understand for years. Prior to my Lyme relapse fours years ago I was on a pretty high dose of Doxycycline for acne. And only a year later when I begged a doctor to put me on a LOWER dose of Doxycycline for Lyme they refused citing the horrible side effects it could cause. A life threatening disease was given less treatment and concern than acne! What does this say about what our culture values? Outward beauty is readily fixed even at the risk of supposedly horrible side effects while Lyme patients are left to suffer! How does flawless skin matter more than a potentially deadly disease? It is abysmal that doctors can hide behind their oath to "Do no harm." while the patient could very well die without treatment. </div>
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How long will this go on? When will doctors who refuse to treat Lyme with antibiotics see the double standard? Who will be brave enough to change the guidelines so doctors will be taught the truth? When will insurance companies accept that Chronic Lyme exists and treatment is vital. Change in the medical world is crucial. Lives are at stake so please <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/12/the-importance-of-lyme-awareness.html">continue to spread the truth</a> about Lyme Disease and pray for change.</div>
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<span style="font-size: x-small;">P.S. I recently explained this dilemma to a different doctor and he was in shock at the comparison and that other doctors had scoffed at me. He even commented on how little the side effects are especially compared to what Lyme could do. On another note as much as antibiotics have helped me I am also very grateful for natural remedies. I don't think antibiotics are the only option but I do think they should be available to patients who need them!</span></div>
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Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-4454426893802442932015-12-02T13:22:00.000-08:002015-12-02T13:28:47.874-08:00The Importance of Lyme Awareness <div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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In my small online world as a professional homebody I see post after post about "Awareness". Ranging from posts detailing life with chronic illness or changing your profile picture to superheroes hoping to garner awareness for childhood cancer. I have to wonder if the purpose is to educate, to feel understood, or even because you feel guilty for your own good health? And it makes me wonder what kind of awareness truly changes things and when is it absolutely necessary? </div>
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I have multiple health problems but I only feel dire need to spread awareness for one: Lyme Disease. With CRPS and POTS, I am a bit of a puzzle for doctors to know what kind of treatments will work. It's frustrating and difficult to manage but I can handle it for the most part. Lyme is a whole different story. As miserable as CRPS and POTS can be they are not fatal whereas untreated Lyme has the potential to cause death. Additionally, I have been laughed at, mocked, and told flat out that I don't have Lyme by doctors who should know better. Thankfully I was stubborn and knew for a fact that I had Lyme. However it is far too easy for someone who has undiagnosed Lyme to search for many more months or even years for some sort of diagnosis after a doctor says those sorts of things. By then Lyme Disease is far harder to treat. And while the Lyme continues to go untreated the patient can start to think it's all in their head because doctor after doctor refuses to diagnose and treat Chronic Lyme. Then doubt starts creeping in possibly even denial. As time keeps going the disease starts taking a greater toll on their body. Perhaps now a doctor starts to believe the patient is in great pain but it's easier to write a prescription for pain pills to cover up the symptoms than it is for them to find and treat the root cause of the pain. While the pain decreases the Lyme keeps spreading sometimes silently and other times violently. It's heartbreaking to watch someone suffer all while under the care of a doctor who is supposed to have their best interest at heart. Some doctors may truly care but without proper education how can they help their patients?</div>
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This is why Lyme awareness is so needed. We need doctors to be taught that Chronic Lyme exists. People need to know that you can contract Lyme Disease in almost every state in the United States and in many other countries across the globe. Lyme needs to be further studied and accurate testing needs to be available. Awareness needs to happen so people can get their life back and not have to die because the CDC can't swallow their pride and admit how rampant Lyme is. We need awareness so that a patient is believed by their doctor and can find the help they need instead of thinking their only option is <a href="http://lyme-aware.org/blogs/lyme-blogs-poems/2379-lyme-disease-and-suicide-an-ignored-problem.html">taking their own life</a>. Awareness is crucial so people know what <a href="https://www.lymedisease.org/lyme-basics/lyme-disease/symptoms/">symptoms to look for</a> if they have been bitten by a tick or suspect they may have Lyme. Okay, so awareness is important then how should we go about it?</div>
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Education is key! Someone might google Lyme Disease if your profile picture is a lime green ribbon but what if only non-accurate websites come up? I think we need to post articles from the Lyme community "underground". Patients who have been through it and <a href="http://www.cangetbetter.com/">doctors</a> who treat patients with chronic Lyme. Watching <a href="http://www.underourskin.com/#home-emergence" style="font-style: italic;">Under our Skin</a> and encouraging friends and family to watch is a great way to spread the word. Asking someone you know who is struggling with Lyme can help you understand and could encourage them that someone cares. Sharing what you have learned (with permission if it's specific to a friend's battle) is a good place to start. Obviously I am writing my story on the world wide web so feel free to share with those you know. It's overwhelming to think of all the work that's involved in getting this information out to the world but it is vital! And together and with God I think we can do it!</div>
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A <a href="http://medvideos.org/video/98/what-is-lyme-disease">short video</a> explaining Lyme Disease</div>
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Here is an even bigger <a href="http://www.lymeresearchalliance.org/signs-symptom-list.html">symptom list</a>. Keep in mind that Lyme is often misdiagnosed as Fibromyalgia, MS (Multiple Sclerosis), and ALS (Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis/Lou Gehrig's Disease). Sometimes anxiety and depression can be the first symptoms and it becomes the only health problem that is diagnosed only to find out later that Lyme was the root cause.</div>
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On understanding <a href="http://whatislyme.com/understanding-lyme-tests/">blood tests for Lyme.</a></div>
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<i>Would love to hear your thoughts. Feel free to post links to other great articles in the comments and I may add them to the list.</i></div>
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<br />Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-64964818484685292012015-11-10T17:27:00.000-08:002015-11-10T17:56:53.913-08:00Coloring Book for Operation Christmas Child<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
I like to include a small coloring book in my <a href="http://www.samaritanspurse.org/what-we-do/operation-christmas-child/">Operation Christmas Child</a> boxes but I couldn't find the right size this year and decided to make one myself. After my Nana passed away I wanted to continue her tradition of doing two boxes for little girls. So the pages are pretty girly. Maybe next year I'll draw one for boys too. </div>
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Here's a quick step by step on how I put mine together. </div>
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1. Print your pages by clicking <a href="https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B9WUD8fV3nvfX0xSYVJoX044LWp4SGJqZGF6Q01iUEZWeEVv/view?usp=sharing"><b><i>here.</i></b></a> Unless you have a fancy printer that can print on both sides you will end up with these four pages.</div>
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2. Use a glue stick to put these two pages together back to back.</div>
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3. Then glue these pages back to back.</div>
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5. Line up the edges and fold in half like this.</div>
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6. You can use staples or sew a few stitches Like I did. You can't tell here but I used purple embroidery thread and it added a nice pop of color.</div>
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7. You're done. Don't forget to include crayons or colored pencils. :) </div>
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<br />Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-77767837811389859522015-11-09T16:31:00.002-08:002015-11-09T16:32:53.463-08:00Leaves Free Coloring Page<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Fall leaves are all the rage on the mainland but over here...I get to stare at these beauties. So here is my fall coloring page barely making it before the Christmas craziness takes over!<br />
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<a href="https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B9WUD8fV3nvfMXBkRFE2TXlQLVFIVG1GeU1hdWZmLTdxMFdJ/view?usp=sharing">Leaf Printable</a><br />
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And if you're interested in my other coloring pages....<br />
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<a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/09/wild-and-free-coloring-page.html">Wild and Free Printable</a><br />
<a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/08/maryland-free-coloring-page.html">Maryland Printable</a><br />
<a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/07/ocean-free-coloring-page.html">Ocean Printable</a><br />
<a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/07/be-brave-free-coloring-page.html">Be Brave Printable</a>Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-72911890306194015902015-09-05T21:50:00.000-07:002015-09-05T21:50:55.978-07:0010 years<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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My day started at two in the morning yesterday thanks to my heart fluttering all over the place. I was up so early that I drove Shawn to work before the sun was up. On my way back home the sky looked like a beautiful watercolor painting. I really tried to soak it in as I was so tired and only wanted to complain instead of choosing joy. I set my alarm just in case I fell asleep so I wouldn't miss my doctor appointment. I had a thirty minute power nap and then woke up stressed because I forgot to hand in my log book that went with the twenty-four hour heart monitor (thanks brain fog). I called the cardiologist hoping I could just read off the few things I had written but was told I needed to bring it in. At this point I was close to tears but rushed to get ready so I could bring it in to the cardiologist and still make it to my primary care doctor in time.<br />
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During the car ride it suddenly dawned on me that it was the tenth anniversary of my initial RSD/CRPS injury. Tears streamed down my face as I thought of all that had changed in ten years and the things that were the same. And then I got frustrated at myself that I wasn't handling it like <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2014/09/9-years.html">last year</a>. But it's a different year with different emotions and that is okay. I pulled myself together and made it to both doctor's offices in time. </div>
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Later I was thinking how different my life would have been without RSD/CRPS. I would have graduated from the private school I loved and that my parents worked so hard at. I would have finished college and probably started teaching. After that I don't know what might have happened.</div>
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What has happened though? I got to be homeschooled by my mom. I have many fond memories of listening to my literature books in the car on my way to doctor appointments. I moved to Hawaii because the RSD/CRPS pain got so bad every winter. And most importantly I met Shawn and for that I am so grateful. If I had the chance to go back I wouldn't take it. I am thankful for my life the way it is but I will always hope that I continue to get better!</div>
Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-76445003854692926322015-09-02T13:34:00.000-07:002015-09-02T13:34:11.485-07:00Wild and Free Coloring Page<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I would love to see your finished pages! Use #wildandfreela if you post on instagram. Happy coloring!<br />
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<a href="https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B9WUD8fV3nvfdU9IWjd3WlQ0ZWNzMGpNUWJpekRBdDQyTFlz/view?usp=sharing">Click here to print Wild and Free Coloring Page</a><br />
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Here is the link to the <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/08/maryland-free-coloring-page.html">Maryland Coloring Page</a><br />
Here is the link to the <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/07/ocean-free-coloring-page.html">Ocean Coloring Page</a><br />
Here is the link to the <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/07/be-brave-free-coloring-page.html">Be Brave Coloring Page</a><br />
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Summer is nearly over and a new school year is on the horizon. With this in mind, I decided to make a simpler coloring page for kids to enjoy. Here is a coloring page inspired by the state I was born in. Let me know what you think! Happy Coloring!</div>
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<a href="https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B9WUD8fV3nvfQTZKZkRfcjBTUTZwRjhFemQ4QkZUV181SUFJ/view?usp=sharing">Click here to print your Maryland Coloring Page</a><br />
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And here is the link to the <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/07/be-brave-free-coloring-page.html">Be Brave Coloring Page</a><br />
And here is the link to the <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2015/07/ocean-free-coloring-page.html">Saltwater Coloring Page</a><br />
<br />Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-282647353939815012015-08-05T19:06:00.000-07:002015-08-05T19:06:38.677-07:00Chronically Fashionable<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Fashion has never really been my thing. When it comes to appearance I mostly care about what earrings I am wearing and 99.9% of the time I made them. But when it comes to clothes my number one requirement is comfort. And every piece of clothing has to work for my health requirements. I thought it would be fun to spoof a "What I Wore" fashion post as a chronically fashionable (haha) woman. So here goes nothing...<br />
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Fancy pajama day! On this day everything hurt so comfy and flowy clothes were the answer. Because of the RSD/CRPS my legs always need to be covered. Any wind or air touching can be very painful. Pants are best because I need to lie down often to calm down my heart rate and sometimes that's hard to do in a skirt. I've never been trendy in my life but Palazzo pants are the best...making pajamas trendy one pair of pants at a time!</div>
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Trying to look semi professional but also comfy in this outfit. A trend in my outfits is trying to disguise my weight with shirts. My weight is constantly changing and I have absolutely no control over it. People get worried when I look too skinny so I'd rather look bigger to avoid that! Flowy and ruffle shirts are great for this. Maxi skirts aren't as convenient as pants but they are super comfy and keep the wind from touching my legs. Mission accomplished.</div>
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After two days of trying to be normal my body decided I needed to stay in bed all day. So here are my true pajamas. Comfy shirt and six year old yoga pants. Winning!</div>
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Finally some color in my outfits! Coral and navy happens to be one of my favorite color combinations. I love the style of this shirt and I wear it all the time. These pants are the closest I get to shorts. Notice how they're sheer part of the way down? Perfect for staying cool and protecting my legs from unnecessary pain! And the elephants on the bottom are the icing on the cake!</div>
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More color! Such a comfy shirt, I love it! And these linen pants are the best. So soft and perfect for hot days. Oh, and they have an elastic waistband need I say more? And the necklace is made by me and helps dress up the outfit a little more. I have worn pajamas before only to put a huge statement necklace and called it dressed up. Hey, when you're in pain ya gotta do what ya gotta do!</div>
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<i>So my fellow chronically fashionable friends....do you dress similarly? Any tips you've learned along the way? I'd love to hear them!</i></div>
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I hope someone out there is enjoying coloring the pages as much as I enjoy making them. I decided to go with an ocean theme and thought the quote would be a good laugh for my <a href="http://www.dysautonomiainternational.org/page.php?ID=30">P.O.T.S. </a>friends! Just click the link above to print.<br />
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I would love to see your finished pages. Use #besaltyla and #chronicallyhopeful if you are on instagram.<br />
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I created this coloring page for my fellow chronic illness fighters as a fun way to pass the time. Although I think teens and adults alike would enjoy it. Just click on the link and it will take you to the google document.<br />
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Feel free to send me pictures or post on instagram using #bebravela and #chronicallyhopeful<br />
<br />Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-8304787921780589422015-07-02T13:24:00.002-07:002015-07-02T13:24:51.458-07:00Only a Number<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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I heard from my Lyme Doctor today. My CD-57 numbers are still low. For the past six months my doctor was pretty sure my numbers would be at 60 considering I have been feeling better. Two years ago I started at<a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2013/06/21.html"> 21</a> and then after intense treatment I was up to <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2013/07/37.html">37</a>. For the past year and a half I have been in the 30s. And today I am at 43 which is the highest I have ever been. Even so, I am disappointed. After aggressive treatment for two years and consistent treatment for four, I hoped my numbers would be higher and we could at least stay on current treatment or start decreasing the dosage. Unfortunately my number being this low means I will need to up treatment although I am still trying to figure out what this entails.<br />
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I would really appreciate prayers for encouragement. Fighting Lyme is getting wearisome. Especially when it doesn't always feel like treatment is working. And while I could try to treat really aggressively I don't know if my body can handle it. Thankfully I am better than I was four years ago. I just wish this battle was almost over instead of realizing there is a lot more fighting ahead.<br />
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Today marks four years since Lyme started raging throughout my seemingly healthy body. I look back at our wedding photos and I hardly recognize myself. Not because I changed so much physically but because inside I am a completely different person. Sure, my hair is two feet shorter and a tangible example of how I have changed physically but what I see is a young woman who had no idea the horrors ahead. Who thought the worst was behind her and was ready to start a life with the man she loves so dearly.<br />
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Lyme had been in my system for nearly sixteen years at that point. We had no clue how it was tearing me apart little by little. I had lived with pain from RSD/CRPS for five years. I'd been in a wheelchair and didn't think I'd ever have to go back. However, I always knew it was a possibility. Shawn walked into our marriage knowing my health could fail at any point. When he vowed to love me "in sickness and in health" on our wedding day I knew he meant it with all his heart but I hoped that it would only be a small part of our lives. Instead the day after our wedding my health slowly started falling apart. Turning into a nightmare we never saw coming. As sick and in pain I had been before this was ten times greater.</div>
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During those first few months we all hoped that it would be over quickly. I'd conquered pain and illness before and I could do it again. That made it easier to fight because we thought it would all be over soon. And then a year went by and we saw some improvement but a long ways to go. Two years went by and I became worse. More things were going haywire inside my fragile body but we hit the Lyme harder with IV antibiotics and an amazing new doctor on our side. Things eventually improved and I started feeling more like myself bringing us into year three. We could see a better life ahead and then a sprained ankle this March dashed those dreams to pieces.</div>
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Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-57948592701460021952015-04-24T15:42:00.000-07:002016-01-03T14:40:41.813-08:00The BattleAs I've mentioned before, many doctors are unbelievably rude and condescending toward patients with misunderstood chronic conditions. Lately I have been experiencing more understanding doctors but each time I go into the office I remind myself to believe they have my best interest at heart. The emotional pain I have endured at the hands of "experts" makes this easier said then done. Even when a previous appointment went well I still worry that this will be the appointment that their true colors are shown. But there is hope and I am learning I can trust again.<br />
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And then there are the doctor appointments that I am almost certain will go poorly. Infectious Disease doctors are like this, I don't know what they are taught in school but they are so against Chronic Lyme it's ridiculous. I had to see one of them last week but I went prepared for battle. My armor bearer came with me although she is more commonly known as my mother-in-love. If the appointment went predictably horrible either I would be able to muster up the courage to speak against the lies or if all I could do was cry my armor bearer could fight for me.<br />
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The Infectious Disease Doctor started spouting off every single lie the CDC had poured down his throat. I knew I wasn't going to change his mind but I also wasn't willing to just take it. I didn't put any energy into my responses. Like when he asked what my symptoms were I said that Lyme has effected everything except my fingernails. Which is very true but it also meant that I didn't have to exhaust myself by listing every symptom when he clearly wouldn't help me.<br />
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His response? "Okay, fatigue. So I want to put you on this medication for fatigue. The side effects aren't good though. And then I'll run some blood tests using FDA approved labs. The other labs aren't safe."<br />
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In my head I was thinking fatigue is not what I meant, yes the fatigue is bad but I have serious problems everywhere. If I had listened to doctors like you I would not be alive today. And those labs you're mocking, yeah they prove that I am a very sick person! And how about get rid of the infection instead of covering up a symptom!!! But instead I spoke in a rather rude tone and said, "No, I don't want that medication. What tests are you planning to run?"<br />
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And you know what it felt good to stand up to an I.D.D. even though that rude tone was basically nothing compared to what I felt inside. It was the first time I ever had the brain capacity and courage to stand up for myself against the likes of him. All thanks to God and my armor bearer sitting beside me.<br />
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Of course he ran all the wrong tests and I am still trying to figure out if there is a way I can avoid seeing him to have the results read. I already know what they'll say...absolutely nothing! And then I get an earful of why I don't have Chronic Lyme. It took me a few days to finally get over his daftness. I made a fake award since he should win I.D. doctor of the year according to the CDC. Drawing that award is now on the top of the list of weird things I've done to help myself detox from horrible doctors. It probably won't be the last but at least I've started to find my voice against Infectiously Daft Doctors!<br />
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Life with chronic illness can encompass every area of your life. Even seemingly normal or simple events can wreak havoc on your very fragile body. My recent emergency room trips are a perfect example.<br />
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A few weeks ago I started having difficulty breathing at night and also noticed my heart would beat rapidly for little or no reason at all. I have strange and new symptoms all the time so even though I was concerned I knew that there wasn't much that could be done. I kept most of it to myself, but took things a little slower to keep my heart from racing. </div>
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Thank you for the attention you have brought to Chronic Lyme Disease. I admire your bravery in fighting this horrific disease and I am so thankful that you choose to be an advocate despite the harsh criticism you receive.</div>
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I read this <a href="https://www.yahoo.com/health/yolanda-foster-with-lyme-disease-i-have-lost-108646471437.html">article</a> when I saw it trending on Facebook earlier this week. A few years ago I wouldn't have been able to even read it. I understand where you are at and I am so sorry. I know some days it feels like you will never get any better but please hold onto hope. </div>
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<i><b>Here are some examples of what you shouldn't say to someone with Lyme Disease. These are real comments about the article I mentioned above. I have heard many similar comments especially from doctors. Skepticism is understandable but kindness is always an option. Also, research is a wonderful tool. </b></i></div>
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<i>I assume by "it" you mean Lyme. Five years ago I could have said that I have Lyme and can still read. But only a year later it started messing with my brain. It caused horrific damage that seems too crazy to believe. But it happened. I truly hope you are one of the "lucky ones" who caught the disease early on. I am sorry you have Lyme and hope you fully recover.</i></div>
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<i>You mentioned that everyone with Lyme has joint pain. Yes, that's pretty accurate. But I believe Yolanda is trying to talk about the symptoms that most people would never think of. Lyme doesn't only cause joint pain and I am thankful that she is letting others see that.</i></div>
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<i>Lyme can cause extreme brain fog and memory loss. A few years ago it took me days to write a short blog post. I still don't understand how I managed to write. Some days it was impossible but other days I pushed through it. Most of those blog posts I had another adult read over because I had no clue if it made sense. I suspect Yolanda has done the same. </i></div>
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I had a very hard time with this as well. Asking for help felt like I was succumbing to Lyme. When in fact the more help I received the more energy I could put into fighting Lyme. Many people want to help, so let them. <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2014/01/living-life-together.html" target="_blank">Living life together</a> is a beautiful thing.</span><br />
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Doctors are generally taught that Chronic Lyme does not exist. They believe that a few weeks of antibiotics will cure you but this is only true if you just contracted Lyme. In order to get the best treatment you will want to find a Lyme Literate Medical Doctor (LLMD).</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">I am a firm believer that trials like Lyme are a <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2014/05/refining.html" target="_blank">refining </a>process. When bad things happen it's up to you to choose to look at the good instead of the bad. You would be surprised at the things you are thankful for like having the energy to do laundry! You can also be more sympathetic towards those who are struggling in life. I have learned life-long lessons through this horrible disease.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b><br /></b></span>There are a lot of things that you may have trouble doing. Cleaning, cooking, socializing, etc. Know that <a href="http://ahmowamasamat.blogspot.com/2013/08/a-time-and-season.html" target="_blank">your job</a> right now is to beat the Lyme. If all you can do today is stay in bed, eat, and take your medication...that is okay!</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b>10. </b></span><b><span style="font-size: large;">Don't give up</span></b></span><br />
<span style="font-family: inherit;"><b><span style="font-size: large;"><br /></span></b>Treating Lyme is a long and difficult process. You may feel like giving up, but please don't. There is light at the end of the tunnel. The progress you see may be slow but it all adds up! Keep fighting, you got this!</span><br />
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<i>Many thanks to my amazingly talented sister for the photos. Trust me folks, you do not want to see what these would have looked like if I was behind the camera. Also, thanks to my family who listened to me talk about my ideas and who posed in photos. </i></div>
<span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span>Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-85672749955482489942014-09-29T22:46:00.001-07:002014-09-29T22:46:44.722-07:00Herxing<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Herxing is probably the worst part of Lyme Disease. Every time you start a new treatment the Lyme begins to viciously fight against the the the new treatment. It is generally a two to six week period of feeling absolutely awful. Not only do symptoms increase but your emotions go wild. Each time I start something new I am scared to find out what is coming. It is a challenge to willingly make yourself miserable in order to get to the end goal of feeling better.</div>
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A few months ago I was really struggling with this concept. Why does it have to be this way? And then I realized it is so similar to Christ's life on earth. He willingly went to earth knowing He would suffer. All the time He knew that it was worth it. And I am incredibly grateful for His strength and His willingness to endure that kind of emotional and physical suffering. Obviously, I am not comparing myself with Christ. He endured suffering far better than I ever have or will. But it gives me great comfort knowing that He suffered as well.</div>
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Shawn and I face another round of herxing. I have finally stopped antibiotic shots after a year. Can't tell you how happy I am to not have to stick myself with a needle three times a week! And now we are moving on to an oral antibiotic. We know it's a rough road ahead. As Shawn said the other night, " [You] herxing is the scariest thing I have ever experienced." I have to agree with him, it is incredibly scary and painful. And I am so grateful that he is always there for me. Even in the hardest days. For that I am forever grateful.</div>
Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-60278075120640686932014-09-04T22:19:00.002-07:002014-09-04T22:21:41.789-07:009 Years<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Today I am celebrating nine years with chronic pain. It used to be a sad day for me but now it is a positive day. It's crazy how much I have been through in nine years and yet I am still happy. This is why I can celebrate!<br />
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Nine years later, I am sitting in the coffee shop. I can't move my legs but I am not worried, they'll work again soon. Instead of freaking out and calling my husband to pick me up right away, I'll wait a few hours. Why not? It makes me laugh to think that's my reaction but that's what happens after nine years!<br />
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I may not do very much but my life isn't boring! There is always a new crazy symptom coming up. And for right now, I'm okay with that.<br />
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*The leg thing happened two weeks ago. Don't worry. I'm fine! *</div>
Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-23527954681026515402014-08-15T13:20:00.000-07:002014-08-15T23:51:45.313-07:00Chronically Confusing<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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If you ever asked me how I am feeling then you probably experienced one of the strangest and most confusing conversations of your life. You see the whole time my mind is conflicted with what to say. On one hand I want to be honest and tell you how bad I truly feel and on the other hand I want you to see the hope I have despite Lyme Disease. Even though this setback has lasted three years I am still trying to learn how to be an advocate for others with chronic illness. And I see honesty as one of the most important aspects of advocacy.<br />
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In talking to other friends with chronic illness this seems to be a trend. It's hard to know what to say. The symptoms I deal with on a good day would probably keep you home from work. And I don't want to make you uncomfortable or feel bad for me. I'm pretty comfortable with being sick. In fact I know how to be sick far better than I know how to be well! So if you ask, I'll probably say something like "I'm doing okay." Okay to me is normal but if I feel awful I'll probably tell you. I have an honesty problem!<br />
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When someone reads my blog or has a conversation with me, I want them to see the ups and downs of chronic illness. Good days are hard to come by but they happen. And when they do I am thrilled because not only am I having fun but I know that one day every day could feel like that. In the future, I shouldn't have to worry so much about my health and that is an exciting thought! Will the illness still be there? Most likely but I will be mostly back to my "normal" self. I will have to take very good care of myself to keep the illness at bay but I won't have to think of Lyme Disease every second of every day!<br />
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Our life was turned upside down,</div>
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One day we will look back in awe,</div>
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At the story you wrote for us.</div>
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Give us the strength to keep fighting.</div>
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Yesterday was our third anniversary. It has been a crazy adventure. Despite my very poor health, we are so happy to be married. The Lyme and RSD flare began the day after our wedding. My health started declining rapidly and it changed all of our plans. But I truly believe it has been for the better. So many wonderful things have come out of this trial. Life is a learning process and trials are an incredible learning and life changing experience. There has been a lot of heartache but there have also been many moments of joy and awe in God's plan for our life. </div>
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Thank you for walking with us on this journey. We are so grateful for your prayers and encouragement. The picture above was taken a few days ago. I may look healthy on the outside but honestly, I am surprised that I even made it out of bed that day. Thankful for the strength that God gives us each day to keep fighting this terrible disease.</div>
Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-29724797352466072502014-05-17T10:51:00.000-07:002014-05-17T11:09:54.301-07:00Refining<div class="MsoNormal">
On very bad pain days I will generally mutter the words, “My
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"Bless our God, O peoples;<br />
let the sound of his praise be heard,<br />
who has kept our soul among the living<br />
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You brought us into the net;<br />
you laid a crushing burden on our backs;<br />
you let men ride over our heads;<br />
we went through fire and through water;<br />
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I am losing function in so many ways and my body doesn't work how I would like it to. But I am beginning to learn that even while I am losing some things, I am gaining other even greater things. God is refining me and bringing me to a place of abundance.<br />
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Now when I am tempted to get angry when my body causes pain, I will work on reminding myself that the pain is allowing even greater things to happen. What may feel like punishment is in fact a blessing in disguise. I would not be where I am today without the pain refining me. So, I am going to work on loving myself and loving where God has me even when my body appears to hate me!<br />
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Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-62055664017911635992014-02-15T22:42:00.000-08:002014-02-15T22:42:46.118-08:00The Chain<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I found this poem today that I wrote back in 2009. At the time I was just beginning my journey with Lyme. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">This week has been a challenging one and I have felt blindsided by a lot of things that relate to my health. It is so easy to let anxiety and anger take over. I just want to be better and it often feels like two steps forward and one step back. But I am grateful that God can use anything, even words that I wrote a few years ago to encourage me to keep fighting.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; line-height: 20px;"><b><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">The Chain</span></b></span></div>
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The chain wrapped ‘round my ankle once again,</div>
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I could feel the devil pulling me in,</div>
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Encouraging vice and falsity,</div>
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And telling me things that could never be.</div>
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I was fed the lies and believed each one.</div>
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The lies rolled off my tongue.</div>
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I told myself I could never be loved,</div>
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Not after what I had done.</div>
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The chain breaks loose,</div>
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I climbed out of the abyss,</div>
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I see the light once more,</div>
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But the light is brighter than before.</div>
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I see the truth I hear Him now,</div>
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And see the devil’s furrowed brow.</div>
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The joy I have shall not leave,</div>
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To Christ alone will I cleave.</div>
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But the joy is blinding to the enemy,</div>
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My joy is all he can see.</div>
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So the chain entwines my ankle once more,</div>
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But the chain is not the same as before.</div>
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This time I must suffer for the joy I bear,</div>
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And the chain tempts me to despair,</div>
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I am falling once more into the pit,</div>
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This the Lord cannot permit.</div>
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His hand extends into the pit,</div>
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To Him alone the chains submit.</div>
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The chains fall into darkness,</div>
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Falling further into the abyss.</div>
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Harm was the devil’s plan,</div>
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But in me my Father’s work began.</div>
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The struggles I face are for His glory,</div>
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And the chains are a mere memory.</div>
</span></span>Laurahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12745217368384589205noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8520534986091424197.post-53684561037790514352014-01-27T21:37:00.000-08:002014-01-28T21:13:59.045-08:00Living Life Together<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Spending time in a wheelchair and on crutches has opened my eyes to help others in similar predicaments. Sometimes it is hard to help people who are struggling because you don't want to hurt their feelings but I believe if you help with the right heart they will be blessed. Even if they act like they don't want the help it is always good for people to know that someone cares.<br />
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Shawn and I saw a man the other day sitting in a wheelchair in the rain trying to get into a building far away. Shawn quickly ran to grab an umbrella and asked me to push him. It broke our hearts to see that people had passed him and didn't offer to help. I went up and asked if he wanted me to push him and I could see he was grateful to know someone cared. But I also knew what it is like to be in that chair and wish that you could be independent. It is so hard to accept help but sometimes you need to.<br />
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Do you know someone who is struggling? Perhaps they are like me living with a chronic illness or maybe they are working three jobs to provide for their family. I would challenge you to pray that God will reveal a way for you to help them. Can you send them a meal, pick up their kids from school, take them to a doctor appointment, or pick up groceries for them? I remember when my R.S.D. first started someone offered to do all of my Mom's ironing. What a blessing that was. It was a reminder that we weren't alone in fighting that health battle.<br />
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In the past two years many people offered to help but most of the time we were too exhausted to even let them know how they could help us. But each offer was such an encouragement. It was so helpful when someone found a way to help and just did it without asking. For example saying they would like to bring us dinner that week and what day would be good for us. Not having to make as many decisions was relieving.What a beautiful thing it is when we live life together. When we can cry together, laugh together, and share each other's burdens.<br />
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We are not meant to live life alone. Don't shut yourself in and try to live life by yourself. And if you are watching your friend struggle be the kind of friend who reaches into the darkness and says I'll walk through this with you. The movie Frozen reminded me how easy it is to live in isolation like Elsa. It is easier to hide than it is to share in each other's lives. But we need each other. We need words of wisdom, words of kindness, and sometimes we need to be told if we're making mistakes. Words have the ability to change your life. The change can be positive or negative that is up to you. Sometimes kindness needs no words. Even a friendly smile can make a difference in someone's day.<br />
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I want to be more intentional about living life together. It is so easy for me to stay home by myself but I need to reach out to others. And I need to be intentional about <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke%206&version=MSG" target="_blank">treating others as I wish to be treated.</a> We live in a beautiful world and it would be a pity if we didn't share in that beauty together.<br />
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