Sunday, July 24, 2011

The Tin Man


                Some days I feel like the Tin Man from the Wizard of Oz. All I am capable of is sitting there watching the world move around me and looking forward to the times that I will be back on my feet again and able to enjoy the world.
                Over the past few weeks I have watched myself go back to where I was at fourteen. I can barely function and have to be off of my feet most of the day. Severe pain begins in my feet and at times spreads throughout my whole body. Some symptoms are the same and others are different. At times I feel I can conquer anything and at other times I am scared of what will happen next.
                God is molding my heart through this situation. I know there is purpose but still my heart aches to have more purpose than lie on a couch unable to do anything all day. But a burdened heart is still a heart in the maker’s hands and I need to joyfully continue this journey. It is a journey full of adventure, heartbreak ,family, friends, and love just like the one on the yellow brick road

5 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear that! But glad that so many good lessons can be learned from it. I guess it's God's crazy way of using all things for good! I'm praying for you!

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  2. I'm so sorry, Laura! I remember feeling the same way when I went through my pregnancies...I was so sick, I could hardly do a thing besides lay on the couch and be miserable, and it drove me crazy!

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  3. So sorry, Laura! Praying for you today. Be blessed.

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  4. You are doing much more than watching the world go by...

    You are being an inspiration!! Thank you for your beautiful blog of heartfelt honesty!!!! <3

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  5. A WORD-centered life is all we need to accomplish and that can be done lying down. You are accomplishing the pursuit of your chief end.

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